Forgive me, if I can't trust the government and the media.

There is a lot of talk about Holocaust, Communism, etc. but have we ever confronted what we are doing now, in the name of fighting against fifth column or in the name of science? When I'm reading the histories of most modern countries, including America and Poland, human experimentation, even state-funded (talking mostly about America) are still alive. Putin is obviously a terrible guy, just like Xi Jinping, yet have had the West considered the monstrosities?

I'm reading the testimony of this woman right now: https://lynnsart.net/my-story/brief.html

She was trafficked and tortured by the evil men and the collaborationist women. Even civillized countries are capable of these monstrosities. This is why I'm a proud GC feminist, aka radfem. This exact reason. 

Forgive me, if I didn't believe in Covid psychological operation (disease or not, who cares, I won't deny it, nor I care about getting guilt-tripped), I come from a severely traumatized family in Poland who told me that government and the media shouldn't be trusted. Never, ever. Forgive me, if it seems like I'm believing any gossip. There are lots of survivors of rape, trafficking and human vivisection (and yes, I am opposed to the animal vivisections, I don't care about the goods of science) and yet their voices are marginalized. I overtime learned to distrust my family members, especially the extended ones as well, I learned to distrust anybody who is my favorite musician and has some weird accusations (not necessarily true, but Neil Peart was a target of those MK Ultra conspiracies involving what I know now. AI, deep fakes and use of text to speech to imitate somebody's voice, that's what Solaris Blueraven claims, hence why he started hating fans and not allowing Rush fans to ever talk to him, if you know the whole story, but I believe Lynn's story is true, though and Marilyn Manson and Till Lindemann are still targets of sex abuse accusations).

I recently had an unpleasant conversation with my newly-found relative, who is alas a dreadful pop singer (sorry, you blocked me dude because of your bizarre feud with my grandparents [talking about your uncle Janek and his wife, my granny]  you told me I was fake and an impostor, even though I picked one of my aunts on portal for Eastern Borderlands wartime survivors "Kresy" and then you proceeded to badmouth my grandparents and you told me rock and metal are not your kind of music, like my apparent aunt who cursed rock and metal, also you didn't get jokes about Mario and Luigi and the Goombas). He told me he wasn't straight up interested in family's wartime trauma history and derisively told me that I should go to a psychologist. How does he know, I would not receive abuse... from therapists and psychiatrists? They are strangers to me. My apparent relative works in the Polish television and I distrust the television, because it lies. I will never forgive how the Polish television behaved during the PiS govt. takeover and especially during the traumatic Covid lockdowns, so finding out my relative works there feels quite like a knife in my heart.

I won't share their names, as they are alive. But one relative is a dogmatic Catholic, as we know, Vatican keeps so many awful secrets, is one of the biggest child sex abuse hubs and she accused me of being a theistic Satanist, even if I'm actively against this awful religion  (some bad guys use these religions for tortures and is similar to Islam in thinking, as I said, I'm a proud critic of all religions) and the other is a "cool Polak" history-hater, who dogmatically serves the best interests of government and mainstream media. They all should forgive me though for my distrust in majority of institutions.

BTW, Internet is indeed dead, the only alive part is sadly deep web. The surface web is c*apped with AI bizarre content and many people I talk to are bots. The elite obviously wants to replace people, but they still need people to fight for their wars and their interests. Ask Frank Zappa, if he were alive and well.

And let me tell you, project MK ULTRA was real and sadly the exact number of its victims is unknown, due to govt's efforts to cover the numbers up. It also involved lots of sexual abuse. I wouldn't wish it on anybody, especially women or children. Not even on men, to be more clear.