Let's face it, I want to be a famous rock and metal musician, so badly. I spend my whole life, daydreaming about it. And that prevailed since when I was a teenager.
Unfortunately, I cannot find a band, due to my specific taste in music (I love Rush and any rock band with banshee, Janis Joplin-like voices), due to the fact, most men (so far I couldn't find women to my band), didn't want to get along or wanted something extra that I couldn't provide for them, because it was traumatizing and not suitable for Polish conditions and some of them, lived too far away from my city (or maybe town). So, I'm left out with my own multi-instrumental skills, I'm playing guitar, bass, drums, keyboards, I sing and I want to have my stage name I told some of you about, but now I'm not gonna make it obvious. I want to be the part of the music industry, very much. But I met with a lot of obstacles so far.
I'm not really certain, if they would accept me there, because .e.g I'm a woman, I'm from Poland, they might find my views unacceptable, they might tell me that there is no profit from my music, AI might be "better" than me, according to the music industry or accidentally I might sound way too much like my beloved band Rush. Sorry, but voice-wise, it's just coincidental, I happen to have a bit similar voice either to Geddy Lee or to Jon Anderson of Yes or to some degree Janis Joplin. I have that throaty, nasally at times contralto and they for some stupid reason remarked that "you sound like a 13 year old boy". I don't know why, my voice is very weird, it wasn't enhanced by AI. No, nothing. That's my voice, apparently.
So, I'm gonna try describing what kind of political views won't be accepted by the music industry, I presume. First, it's gonna be the right-wing and many forms of it, like alt-right, neo-nazism etc. I accepted it, I was fine with it, even if I like debating right-wing folks, due to my belief in free speech (but if they tried violating anybody, they wouldn't be free of consequences). If you count some hunters, fishers and gun rights activists, trust me, not all of them are misogynistic and James Hetfield, Avril Lavigne, Ted Nugent, Kid Rock seem to do fine. I'm myself pretty centre-left or centrist (sometimes centre-right under a few conditions). Second, gender-critical feminism, derisively called "TERFism". JK Rowling did nothing wrong, of course I don't approve of violating trans people, but some of them are either aggressive activists or AGP fetishists who think being a woman is just a clown costume. So, I'm gonna admit, here you are, I'm a gender-critical feminist. Third, I'm sure they wouldn't approve of Polish patriots, because they all believe that Polish patriotism is far-right, even though we were occupied by Nazi Germany, which was far-right. So, where's the logic? I'm a Polish patriot, even if I have some oikophobic doubts and I'm not gonna shy away from such doubts I have, because truthfully, I would reather be born into the non-misogynistic, peaceful world without countries and borders ("Imagine". Haha, I'm more like an Esperantist, than John Lennon's aficionado, even though I like his music very much, shame about his treatment of his wife Cynthia).
So let me move to the next section. I'm sure that music industry wouldn't accept my looks. Obviously I don't look like a Barbie, I have a big nose, like a bird's beak (don't imply I approve of everything Zionists [NOTE: I'm not pro-Palestinian, either] or cancel culture aficionados do, because of that), dark hair, crooked teeth with cavities (I gotta go to the dentist and fix the cavities, maybe not the crooked teeth, as Asians find them cute), small breasts (I think so), small height (I'm a bit of a dwarf, 158 cm) and I was told I look like Geddy Lee, which sounds to me like a compliment. Whew, I wrote a lot about my effing complexes, but enough for now. I admittedly won't use much make-up (maybe sometimes, if I felt like it), because I think patriarchy pressures women to look the certain, non-individualistic ways. Karolina Żebrowska on YouTube talked about how beauty standards changed over the years. Men used to find even "fat" women attractive, back then, so what are we talking about? Nowadays in Mauritania, girls are overfed and abused, because men find "fat" women attractive.
Anyways, my biggest fear is to meet some Harvey Weinstein-like or P. Diddy-like personalities in the music industry, who would take the advantage of me and that's why I'm reluctant to pursue my musical career, even though I feel like the clock is ticking, because now I'm 24 and I might waste my life by overthinking. My piercing voice won't be there forever, probably. But I hope it's not the case. Fortunately, I got my blog for this stuff. And I can vent any time I want.
The music industry, undeniably is full of corruption, chauvinistic men hating women and wanting to destroy women who want to pursue their careers (I can't believe some men are defensive about these monsters, even my dad always disagrees with me, when I speak about it, but he claims he is open to new perspectives, then OK), using satanism as an excuse to conduct in very criminal ways, full of nepotism, willingness to control the musicians, who signed to their labels and mental misery and hatred. I wish things were different.
So my question is: "Why do I have to censor myself to be accepted in the music industry?" Do they have something to hide from newcomers or what?
So, perhaps, I would have to utilize the Internet, but due to the fact, how YouTube is getting exposed for stealing composers' music and suing the composers for "stealing someone else's music", I would have to cease using YouTube, unless for small vlogs. SoundCloud is possibly corrupted like this, so I'm gonna use the Bandcamp or any Polish music filehosting website, like Szarpidrut.
I would hope to make it in the Polish music industry, but despite being native Polish, I find it vastly difficult to sing in Polish and I'm gonna make the next blog post about the language I want to sing in.
I hope some readers would refer to what I wrote here.
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