I have officially the worst sense of humor.

 This essay is gonna be short.
So, I got the worst sense of humor and don't even try competing with me.
I make a lot of darkest jokes possible, e,g. about my country, Poland (even though I know Poland mostly was victimized), about myself, my own womanhood (self-hating, I know), about my music, about everything connected with me and it becomes stronger, anytime something upsets me or e.g. I have troubles with the Rush fandom or Rush's crew.
It happens usually because of combination of different things:
- low self-esteem;
- pressure from my parents to be educated and stuff;
- being Polish, my biggest complex to the date;
- the whole world being dystopian and obsessed with pronography;
- not being able to become a successful rock and metal musician;
- COVID lockdowns;
- worldwide anti-female hatred via deepfakes, hate crimes like rape, murder and stuff;
And many other reasons. Can just anybody relate to me? I binge watched Gilbert Gottfried, George Carlin, Jessica Kirson and many other worst and most distasteful comedians. I binge watch comedy, that's why I'm like that, I also used to watch vulgar parodies made with IVONA text to speech on YouTube before the COVID lockdowns and it was something that brainrotted me and made me less stressful.
I believe that because I'm a woman, perhaps I have worse sense of humor, than anybody, I ended up being blocked and afterwards being depressed about it, but I can't help myself, I gotta crack some worst jokes (but without going into gore stuff and whatnot, because it's awful).