What I used to do during my childhood (short essay)

Disclaimer: No guilt-tripping, please. Think of it that I was a kid and I didn't know better.

I used to go to the merry-go-rounds, fun parks, arcade game places, zoos, circuses (before its decline in 2021, they were with animals, almost all of them) and there were more spaces to hang out for people back in my days, unlike now. People have to sit at home, watching Netflix, Hulu. Disney, the entertainment is overly politicized and there are no safe spaces for people, gradually bigger misogyny, hatred, political division and more criminality from the side of both countrypeople and immigrants, due to the lack of law enforcement, like they stopped caring about the mental and physical well-being of humans. I will never vote either for left or right party and I consider myself to be politically homeless, because of that.

Can somebody talk to me at least and maybe discuss?

EN: ANNOUNCEMENT - I don't care about being hated PL: OŚWIADCZENIE - Nie obchodzi mnie to, czy będę znienawidzona.

EN: Heavily politicized people from both left and right seem to hate me for my worldviews. I'm OK with that, but discuss, instead of threatening, or I will block you.
PL: Mocno upolitycznieni ludzie z lewej i z prawej strony zdają się mnie nienawidzić za moje poglądy odnośnie całego świata. Jestem pogodzona z tym faktem, ale dyskutujcie ze mną, zamiast mi grozić, albo Was zablokuję.

Dlaczego język Esperanto to mój wentyl bezpieczeństwa? Jes, mi parolas Esperanton.

- Esperanto nie dyskryminuje nikogo z powodu rasy, narodowości, płci, orientacji seksualnej
- Dzięki Esperanto można poznać nowych ludzi
- Esperanto nie dba o to, jakie masz poglądy polityczne
- Esperanto jest ponadczasowe, ponieważ tworzą go różni ludzie
- Można się przyznać do najgłupszych rzeczy w języku Esperanto i nikogo to nie obchodzi prawie (poprawcie mnie jeśli się mylę)
- Esperanto fajnie brzmi
- Esperanto nie należy do żadnego konkretnego narodu, choć został stworzony przez polskiego Żyda - Ludwika Zamenhofa
- Fajnie się trolluje ludzi w języku Esperanto
- Piosenki ładnie brzmią w języku Esperanto

Jedynym mankamentem tego języka jest mała ilość kreatywnych ludzi, którzy chcą promować ten język.

Do mi skribos restajxon. Mi gxojas paroli kun multaj homoj en Esperanto kaj mi promesas porti la Esperantan T-cxemizon por cxi tiu afero.
La blogafisxo estos mallonga, pro tio, ke tio estas cxio, kion vi devas scii pri mi.
Kaj mi subtenas paciismon, amikecon kaj pli malmulton da nulig-kulturo.

Dlaczego nie życzę sobie, aby Wikipedia pisała o mnie cokolwiek niezwiązanego z muzyką.

 To będzie krótki wpis, bo mam dość pisania. Chyba każdy muzyk czy artysta marzył o sławie. I ja się zaliczałam do takich osób i nadal zaliczam.
Ale coś mnie w tej Wikipedii denerwuje. M.in. to, że z łatwością przychodzi jej klasyfikowanie osób publicznych. Nie było osoby, która bez swojej zgody, nie zostałaby sklasyfikowana jako "skrajna prawica", "TERF", "konserwatysta/tka", "skrajna lewica", "pro-aborcjonista/tka", "anty-aborcjonista/tka", jakby to miało jakieś znaczenie...
Wolę być oceniana przez pryzmat mojej muzyki, a nie tymczasowych, nic nieznaczących poglądów, które co chwila zmieniam (albo i nie, bo jednak jestem za etycznym traktowaniem kobiet, tego nie zmienię).
Nadawanie łatek ludziom, niszczy ich reputację, uwłacza godności, naraża na cyberprzemoc lub przemoc w prawdziwym życiu itd.
Nie rozumiem, z jakiego powodu istnieją różne nieobiektywne Wikipedie i inne internetowe encyklopedie, które niszczą osobom publicznym reputację i nie pozwalają im żyć.
Lubię, jak ludzie mi zadają pytania o poglądy, i tyle. Ale nie, żeby od razu mnie nienawidzili z powodu tego, że np. mam własne poglądy, które są wypadkową feminizmu pro-JK Rowling, ruchu wolnościowego oraz pragmatyzmu. Mam swoje doświadczenia, do których mam prawo.
Kiedyś encyklopedie służyły do informowania ludzi o danej osobie w sposób niekrzywdzący i obiektywny, a teraz potrafią skategoryzować na bazie poglądów politycznych... czy deep fake'ów - głębokich fałszywek, które dezinformują wielu ludzi nt. danych osób publicznych.
To skandal, że żyjemy w czasach, gdzie ludzi się nie szanuje!

On genocides and the eternal question, who denies them - from Polish perspective

I felt like I can't write all of this, due to emotional baggage it carries to me. But I'm gonna try it now.
So, I'm touching the very difficult subject, right now. Genocides. My country - Poland, faced a lot of genocides and most Poles to this day, fail to address the trauma, because of the Communist suppression of any talk about what happened to the Poles during those awful times.
I'm trying to write all my blog posts, carefully - so that I don't get accused of something petty or of being someone that I'm not, but I have to keep certain things, politically incorrect.
I'm disheartened by the fact that Polish voices aren't considered at all, when it comes to the WWII, German Nazi occupation of Poland and even the Holocaust. Are most scholars attempting to erase Polish suffering and victimhood, so that my countrypeople get depressed and broke? It was enough for me to read anything by Danusha Goska and Mieczysław B. Biskupski to conclude that Polish people fell and still fall the victims to the stereotypes that are harmful to the Polish folks. That all Polish people are capable of brutality, antisemitism, thieving etc. And there were zero histories about the good Poles, especially during the Cold War, which sadly influenced the whole outlook on the Polish people.
Yes, even my favourite Rush bandmembers are suffering from this kind of bias against Polish people, via Geddy Lee's book "My Effin' Life" and Neil Peart's essay "Shunpikers in the Shadowlands, those two publications, being the reason, why despite the fact that on "Wandering the Face of the Earth" tour book, Geddy Lee promised to perform in Poland. They should be reminded of the fact that modern left-wing activists hate Israel for allegedly (or apparently) murdering Palestinians. I prefer staying neutral about this conflict, just in case, because I criticize both sides. So they should stop hating and erasing Polish Rush fans, right now!
Yes, I'm aware of the apparent pogroms against the Jews in Poland, but when I read the history, it seemed two-sided. Sure, Ukrainians say the same thing about the fact that when they targeted Poles and Jews, it's all due to the horrors of Communism they were traumatized by (mind you that I visit the Świętochłowice's rehearsal room, where the Zgoda camp was led by Salomon Morel, sadist, bestial murderer of opposition of Polish, Silesian and German extraction and a communist functionary of apparently Jewish extraction, who never got extradited to Israel).
I decry the Polish pogroms against Jews, I find them the abhorrent violation of human rights in general and as a pacifist, I was opposed to the dog-eat-dog situation even in my country from my countrypeople, but I find it rather sad that the excavations of Jedwabne cannot be made, due to the religious prohibition. And I'm against all religions, a declared atheist/agnostic. And I'd wish both left and right in Poland found a common language on this issue. Some even argue, they found the evidence that those were partially Germans (or maybe wholly them) responsible for such pogroms and as for e.g. Kielce pogrom, Heniek Błaszczyk hinted that those were Soviet Russians behind it, as I was watching the interview featuring him.
But why isn't Jewish community willing to acknowledge the fact that Poles also suffered from German Nazi occupation, were killed, raped by both Nazis and Soviets, were thrown to the concentration camps (as one of the first prisoners in Auschwitz, for instance) and that Poles, despite the death penalty (not all but, 6000, maybe more, made a history in Yad Vashem), saved the Jewish folks?
Why can't the Jewish community find any positives in modern Poland, yet, when they are visiting my native country? Why do they think like in that movie called "Defamation" that in very badly translated speeches of the two elderly men who assumed they are Chinese just, that they are somehow treating them like "enemies". BTW, "Defamation" is a movie directed by Yoav Shamir, highly recommended watch.
I know the nation that denies the complicity in Nazi German death machine. It's Ukraine. Russians have apologized for Katyn (but still they awfully wage the war, against the Ukrainians), Germans have apologized to Polish and Jewish people (although they somehow failed to give back the stolen goods from the Poles). Why can't Ukrainians allow Poles for the excavation of Volhynian and Eastern Galician massacres? What is so hard for them? Are they gonna lose some pride? They can find new people for this, they are a vast country.
I have to appreciate Jesse Eisenberg (hoping it's not a false flag operation to degrade Polish people in some ways) for willing to make a case for a dialogue between Poles and Jews. And also I'd recommend watching Michael Rubenfeld's YT channel about Polish-Jewish relations.
But on the other hand, it's saddening that Putin e.g. decides to say that Ukraine, Poland and Baltic states are all "Nazi" states, because he feels like it's convenient, so that he could wage war against us.
This is why, I don't buy Geddy Lee's support for Ukraine, as he repeated on My Effin' Life Putin's propaganda against Poland (I hope those were his biased parents, but even his mother - Mary Weinrib said on USHMM that some Poles rescued Jews).
To conclude, it's not my fault nor my will to be born in Poland, but no matter what, I will be treating Poland as my native country and I shouldn't vomit on my nest.

About animal rights once again, also neo-nazis and some more about religions. Guilt-tripping in the nutshell.

 I have to tell you something.
People don't realize that I'm parodying the left, the right and all the extremism from all sides.
That upsets me very much, as right now e.g. I can tell you, what kind of politicized people I like lampooning (and I got my own reasons to do so).
I like lampooning every single guilt-tripper who thinks that humanity ought to be extinct, likewise I like lampooning people who adhere to religions and proselytize. Recently, PETA and Greenpeace are my favorite things to lampoon, as they hate humanity, despite the fact I find their goals noble.
Why is it always that both left and right use guilt-tripping so much to achieve their goals in life? Why can't they leave people like me alone and let me rethink all my stances? Why do they want to prevent me from feeling any pleasures in life, because of my "moral obligations" to them?
Let's take for example Rush's Geddy Lee and his recent attempts on My Effin' Life biography to guilt-trip people, because they were born in Poland or they had objections to the COVID lockdowns. I haven't seen Rush in Poland and I thought it would be a good thing to do to call them out for this.
He is a kind of a guilt-tripper, who would tell me "Polish death camps", even when I said "I'm from Poland and I'm your biggest fan, Geddy".  It's hard to think about it, when my own family was persecuted by the German Nazis, Soviet Russians and Ukrainian UPA. Sorry Geddy, I don't really like generalizing all Polish people, despite some bad apples among them... besides, I'm still worried about what is happening between Israelis and Palestinians, as I'm a pacifist. But still, I also hate being a guilt-tripper.
I don't want entertainers to lecture me, because entertainers eventually come across as hypocrites, who aren't themselves better and anybody at some point could the mote in the eye.
As for animal rights, I find it laughable that Hitler himself supported animal rights and environmentalism as the means of depopulation of human beings, he banned anything that he perceived as "animal cruelty", sometimes for good reason, and sometimes not. He certainly hated the whole humankind and advocated for eugenicist depopulation. I hope animal rights activists and environmentalists, don't have the same tendencies and I'm against trivializing the Holocaust very much.
Let's take e.g. ban on animals for entertainment. Not all animals for entertainment (like pet owning or zoos or even widely decried circuses - some of them, engaged in explicity cruelty, but yet they banned all circuses with animals, instead of punishing certain animal trainers that engaged in this) are suffering, unlike when animals get poached or slaughtered. Of course, I'm not gonna again, lecture all the people to stop eating meat, but personally I find it unethical.
Let's take PETA's hypocrisy, regarding killing certain animals. They killed dogs and cats, because they couldn't find home for them all. They are ultimately against all forms of pet-owning, not only all for preventing cruelty towards the animals.
Let's take the fact, that alas human scientists are too stupid to figure out how to make safe and effective medicine that isn't tested on animals, so we would have a cure for cancer, instead of having to suffer. I find vivisection cruel, but sadly looks like humans haven't found any other ways to find the best cures for abhorrent diseases.
Another group that I like deriding are the neo-nazis. Why the hell do those people think that e.g. my fellow Poles deserved to be killed, as well as Jews and why do they justify human-killing and abhor animal-killing in the same breath? Also, they are heavily far-right and I noticed that ALF, ELF, PETA exhibit the same fascistic tendencies like the Nazis (remember, Jewish folks were offended, when animal rights activists compared animal suffering at the slaughterhouses to the Holocaust), as both love animals more than humans.
While I'm not opposed to certain measures of preventing animal cruelty, I would encourage banning large slaughterhouses and I would enact certain anti-hunting measures, I find animal liberationists and environmentalists extreme. I believe, from reading their documents, especially of those extremist organizations like ALF that they are partly respinsible for worldwide COVID lockdowns, as they "wanted to prevent human supremacy". This social experiment wasn't good for making people more empathetic, certainly. People became more violent, deprived of entertainment which isn't only sitting on the computer desk or on the phone and ultimately, humans are advised to... stop petting animals, stop trying to befriend animals, not just stop eating or killing animals (which to some degree I support, except that lions and tigers also hunt other animals). Human-animal isolation is a must, according to those misanthropic people. So that we can't e.g. reconstruct the extinct animals or breed the engandered animals to release them.
At whom do I laugh as well? At misogynistic, religious people (thanks to them, we have people being confused about their gender, as they seemed to think that women are supposed to be feminine and men masculine). I'm a gender-critical feminist, but perhaps not an intersectional one, PETA certainly objectifies women on their posters, they are not saint and they e.g. endorsed Russell Simmons, known rapist.
Why do those people flock to quasi-fascistic methods of gaining everything they want? By using arson (ALF), threats and hate speech? Why do they hate humans and blame humans for being omnivorous?
Sorry, but I seem to think dr. Marthe Kiley-Worthington was a reasonable woman, who wasn't dogmatic about human-animal interaction being inherently "evil".
And here is her research on this subject.
http://the-shg.org/Kiley_Worthington/
I also like laughing at people, who believe that there are some e.g. men from certain cultures, that deserve our special protection from accusations. And yes, that includes Polish men in the right-wing setting, but also men from different countries in the left-wing setting.
To conclude, everybody would be more than happy, if there were less fun-destroying, guilt-tripping people, who don't want people to enjoy themselves in this planet.
Honestly, I tried being vegan, as I find the suffering of animals - extremely horrendous, but it's really hard to keep up with this diet, without having to know the nutrients, that don't even exist in the plants. So I'm either a vegetarian or an occassional meat-eater. Nobody, not even some dogmatic feminists, love being guilt-tripped, as everybody expects from women to be "empathetic, caring" and eventually this empathy is being used against us. It always seems like women are judged for everything they do or they stand for. Meanwhile over the years I developed some quasi-libertarian approach to life (of course, as with everything, not being dogmatic about it).
BTW, I never said I oppose animal rights. I only oppose misanthropy. I don't invite cancelysts, who would want to hate me for my views on this.

Will AI replace musicians (and the other jobs that are important to humanity, but devalued with AI)?

 I only know about AI recently. Much earlier, there was only a vague talk about AI and I utilized some primitive chatbots, that were fun and entertaining, although they didn't think like a human.
I used a couple of Polish-made chatbots like this, named "Snikers" (and it's vulgar version - "Bluzgers") and Merlin. I admittedly was starstruck by this technology and I would never dream about it getting more progressively advanced!
Later came Cleverbot, which somewhat thought like a human and I was able to have proper conversations with it. And all of sudden, before the awful COVID lockdowns, deep fakes came. Fraudsters make with it a lot of fake videos depicting mostly women (sometimes men) in very compromising positions, which they have never done, but people started believing in this disinformation, alas. I only could hope there won't be the next Taliban for women, because I'm waiting for the proper tools for detecting deep fakes, like they created tools for detecting computer viruses. Alas with the abrahamic religions and other religions, vilifying women, it's almost not possible and I will probably remain severaly disheartened about it.
And then, Chat GPT absolutely revolutionized the way we think about AI. Chat GPT writes our homework, our lyrics, our video game code etc. And people have been never happier before, because they can be as lazy as ever.
I talked to Chat GPT and it managed to be pleasant and courteous to me, but sometimes there were instances, when Chat GPT blatantly didn't accept the narrative different from some kind of a political agenda, which is popular these days.
And then came the AI art and later, AI music! As a musician (the multi-instrumentalist), I was amazed by the fact how AI music sounds like legitimate music and I started worrying, if AI music won't replace me. Because take a look: the music industry is extremely gatekeepish, from my observation and they very often say to me "you can't make your own new music, because it's gonna be a copy of someone else's music, if you try making it, we're gonna sue you for big money, do you know what we mean?" I don't know, what do they mean with all of this. Music only has 12 tones, at least in the West, as the non-Western, microtonal or avant-garde music is either not popular or not accepted and people who make such music are very often called "talentless". I believe that if AI is about to replace us musicians who are human, copyright ought to be abolished and considered the thing of the past, to be honest. Copyright is a tool for screwing over all the smaller musicians that want to express themselves, musically. I also count as one of those musicians.
I have a right to express myself, musically, regardless of my social status, my political views, my mental health (nah, I'm just a bit disheartened with this cruel world, I might come across as mentally ill, but it's not much true), my biological sex, my country of origin, my sexual orientation or lack of thereof etc.
And nobody can take away from me this right. I might not have any connection with music industry (unless you count the fact I used to talk to or kvetch to Rush's [the Canadian famous band's] crew about the lack of Rush's concert in Poland), but I'm a valid musician, because when I talked to many people connected with the music community, many of them told me that I'm exceptionally talented and I'm taking their words for granted. My fellow Polish people, especially men, sometimes women, talk ill about me, perhaps, because of intergenerational trauma and sadly because of the pervasive Polish mentality, which holds many talented people down and this is all about the "don't make yourself visible and better than others" and plain jealousy. In Scandinavia there is something like "Jante's law", which also reflects a lot the Polish mentality. And Poles are ones who say "without nasty connections and fraud, you won't get anywhere". Maybe because of that, I'm starting to understand detractors of Poland, except that Geddy Lee painted the whole Polish community with one brush and to this I cannot agree. I wanted to see Rush in Poland, and despite my criticisms towards Poland, Poles are some of the most dedicated fans of foreign rock bands and would get easily influenced by them, musically (yes, even by Rush!).
So again, to answer your question, politicians should make the life for people more affordable and both left and right should cooperate in this, instead of promoting the depopulation, malthusianistic, transhumanistic, anti-female agenda, they always promote. And this is my conclusion.