Jak doszło do konfliktu między mną a... fanklubem zespołu Rush i jak próbuję się pogodzić z nimi

 Więc tak...
Jestem długoletnią fanką zespołu Rush, od 2012 r. z tego co pamiętam, gdy zespół Budgie niestety dwa lata temu nie mógł w Polsce wystąpić, ze względu na chorobę Burke'a Shelleya.
Bardzo mi zależało na koncercie Rush w Polsce, byłam potwornie przez wiele lat zdesperowana, nie wiedziałam co robić, więc chciałam skontaktować się z fanami, którzy spotkali ten zespół, menedżmentem, nawet bliskimi osobami. 
Niestety łagodne metody nie działały, a to z tego względu, że na początku każdy plotkował, że Rush na czele z Geddym Lee nie lubią Polaków, poniekąd to esej Neila Pearta potwierdzał, a następnie potwierdziły się moje obawy w związku z Geddym Lee, wraz z wydaniem książki "My Effin' Life". Tam Geddy opisał jak jego rodzina obrzydziła się Polakami po tym, jak Polacy ich potraktowali (uważam, że po części to prawda niestety, ale wiem jaka geopolityka jest skomplikowana, nie będę wchodziła w szczegóły).
Raz nawet miałam kontakt z nigeryjskim przekręciarzem udającym Geddy'ego Lee i mówiącym mi to samo, co w książce kilka miesięcy później miało być zawarte.
Więc doszukiwałam się hipokryzji i niezbyt fajnych rzeczy np. Rush się skonfliktował z The Runaways. Z perspektywy czasu myślę, że to faktycznie było na tle muzycznym, bo Rush to był zespół progresywny, a The Runaways punkowy i po prostu nienawidzili się wzajemnie z powodów muzycznych, ale autentycznie zrobiło mi się przykro i zaogniły się konflikty (walczę też o prawa kobiet, więc wiadomo).
Nawet doszło do nieszczęsnej konfrontacji między mną, a siostrą Neila Pearta. To przypadkowo się zdarzyło, zastanawiałam się, czy zespół Rush jest miły, bo wiadomo, konflikt z The Runaways był zaogniony, a potem jak pytania nie skutkowały, to zaczęłam opowiadać samonienawistne żarty o sobie i o kraju, za którym ta kapela nie przepadała, no i doszło do nieporozumienia, które teraz chcę odkręcać, bo poleciałam... Testovironem, memem internetowym w Polsce, który polegał na tym, że "Testoviron nie lubił Polaków". Po prostu wcielałam się w rolę komediowe, nikt tego nie pojął. Ale ja to robiłam z desperacji, nawet podczas nieszczęsnych covidowych lockdownów, bardzo marzył mi się koncert Rush w Polsce. Niestety nie chwalę się tym, ale algorytmy w Internecie wiedziały, że mój "konflikt" z Rush przyniósł skutki, bo agencja Alter Art zaczęła się w to angażować i dowiedziała się, no... że polscy fani Rush naprawdę istnieją i zaczęli organizować koncert Rush w Polsce. Paul McCartney też dołożył swoje i chciał, aby Rush powrócił.
Niestety teraz fani Rush nadal chcą mnie szantażować, a ja mówię "PRZEPRASZAM ZA WSZYSTKO, ŹLE SIĘ ZACHOWAŁAM, BYŁAM ZDESPEROWANA, PISAŁAM DO WSZYSTKICH TYLKO PO TO, ABY RUSH WYSTĄPIŁ W POLSCE ALBO POTEM JAK RUSH WYSTĘPUJE, TYLKO PO TO, ABY SIĘ ODCZEPILI ODE MNIE, TAK MI ZALEŻAŁO NA KONCERCIE RUSH, BŁAGAM, NIC ZŁEGO MI NIE RÓBCIE!
Mam nadzieję, że pogodzimy się, ponieważ nie chcę być ciągana po dziwnych instytucjach, tylko dlatego że byłam bardzo zdesperowana o koncert Rush. Jestem zmęczona i chcę zawieszenia konfliktu.

PS Nie zmienia to faktu, że przeżywam to prześladowanie obcokrajowców wobec polskich fanów przed lockdownami, czyli w okresie 2016-2019. 


English translation:

How did the conflict come about between me and... the Rush fan club and how do I try to come to terms with them

So yes...
I'm a long-time fan of the band Rush, since 2012 from what I remember, when the band Budgie unfortunately couldn't perform in Poland two years ago, due to Burke Shelley's illness.
I really wanted to see Rush in Poland, I was terribly desperate for many years, I didn't know what to do, so I wanted to contact the fans who met the band, the management, even close people.
Unfortunately, the gentle methods didn't work, and that's because at the beginning everyone was gossiping that Rush, led by Geddy Lee, didn't like Poles, in a way it was Neil Peart's essay that confirmed it, and then my fears about Geddy Lee were confirmed, with the publication of the book "My Effin' Life". There, Geddy described how his family was disgusted with Poles after how the Poles treated them (I think this is partly true, unfortunately, but I know how complicated geopolitics is, I won't go into details).
Once, I even had contact with a Nigerian prince pretending to be Geddy Lee and telling me the same things that were to be included in the book a few months later.
So I was looking for hypocrisy and not very cool things, e.g. Rush had a conflict with The Runaways. In retrospect, I think it was actually musical, not necessarily misogynistic reason, because Rush was a progressive rock band and The Runaways was a punk band and they just hated each other for musical reasons, but I genuinely felt sorry and conflicts escalated (I also fight for women's rights, so you know).
There was even an unfortunate confrontation between me and Neil Peart's sister. It happened by chance, on the FB. I wondered if the band Rush was nice towards fans, because you know, the conflict with The Runaways was escalated during that time, and then when the questions didn't work, I started telling self-hating jokes about myself and the country that this band didn't like, and there was a misunderstanding, which I now want to undo, because I went over the top... Testoviron, an internet meme in Poland, which depicted that "Testoviron did not like Poles". I was just playing a comedic role, no one understood it. But I did it out of desperation, even during the unfortunate covid lockdowns, I really dreamed of a Rush concert in Poland. Unfortunately, I'm not bragging about it, but the algorithms on the Internet knew that my "conflict" with Rush had borne a fruit, because the Alter Art agency started getting involved in it and found out, well... that Polish Rush fans really exist and  they have started organizing a Rush concert in Poland. Paul McCartney also contributed his own and wanted Rush to return.
Unfortunately, now Rush fans still want to blackmail me, and I say "I'M SORRY FOR EVERYTHING, I MISBEHAVED, I WAS DESPERATE, I WROTE TO EVERYONE JUST TO HAVE RUSH PERFORM IN POLAND OR AFTER RUSH PERFORMS, JUST TO GET THEM TO GIVE ME A BREAK, I CARED SO MUCH ABOUT THE RUSH CONCERT, PLEASE, DON'T DO ANYTHING BAD TO ME!
I hope we can reconcile because I don't want to be dragged around weird institutions, just because I was very desperate for a Rush concert. I'm tired and I want the conflict to be suspended.

PS This does not change the fact that I feel traumatized by the fact I experiencd the Internet persecution from the side of foreigners against the Polish fans before the lockdowns, somewhere between 2016-2019.

My life as someone misunderstood and hated in Rush fanbase and elsewhere

Journal or maybe a story, based on real facts - why am I harassed by so many people:

"Rush fanbase told me "if Rush performs in Poland you are supposed to be happy". Maybe you are right."
So, I started apologizing to Rush members, fanbase, because I realized I exaggerated with some stuff, but I wish Rush fanbase stopped lashing out against me, so here is the whole story:

2020, Neil Peart's death, Covid lockdowns... loneliness, more violence against women, more cyberbullying than ever, manosphere spreading hate against women and women feeling it... I felt so insecure during that time, I saw the political polarization, I saw cancel culture and progressing intolerance against people with different views, I saw radical feminism being less prominent in the world, thanks to anti-JK Rowling crusade I saw done by the manosphere and liberal pseudo-feminists who say that being a woman is not a fact, neither a biology.

Concerts were banned, because of the Covid lockdowns and I had nowhere to practice most of the times, everything was locked down due to the apparent disease lingering through.
As Covid lockdowns passed by, there was more hatred and judgement against folks from different backgrounds, there were more grievances against my country - Poland, against inoculated for Covid, against women for the fact that we wanted to be safe, at the same time, there is less and less conversation between people, people don't like being criticized and so they thought I was harassing them. I wanted to criticize some of their behaviors.

So, of course I was during the covid lockdowns, vulnerable to cyberbullying, I had complexes about the way I look, because patriarchy told me bs that only women who look like Barbies are good.
So some anonymous imageboard trolls exploited that against me (Amanda Todd and Jessi Slaughter were rather similar case, but I'm a strong woman though, I always notice patterns about internet trolls).
Some of them used my ethnicity (Poland, Europe) against me, to spread their xenophobic propaganda against my surroundings.

Before Covid lockdowns, some trolls who claimed they were Rush fans, somewhere between 2016 and 2019 started intentionally making me angry and harassing me, as they knew that I constantly wrote about how I felt sad about not seeing Rush in Poland (they thought I was insulting the saint, wow... they acted like cultists).
So they wrote that "Poland killed Jews and Poland doesn't deserve being seen as a concert hub for Rush".
What? Poland was a victim country! We saved a lot of Jewish people despite death penalty!

Covid lockdowns were lingering and there was then the threat of war... Russo-Ukrainian war... And media said that Poland will be touched by this, so I thought "hey, I got nothing to lose, maybe Rush should perform in Poland, before there will be wars going on".
WEF, UN keep fearmongering about them to the lower-middle class average everyday folks, like me and you, so I wanted my dreams to come true immediately.
So I had to do it, I had to sorta ruin my reputation, just like Nikocado Avocado did.


But the reputation ruin wasn't intentional, I'm confrontational and I have tendencies towards holding a grudge for a long time, like a camel or elephant.
If I think someone wronged me (it actually happened, but I was afraid of making screenshots or providing other means of proof against those who wronged me)
I knew how women were during that time considered "not real Rush fans", I read about how Rush treated The Runaways not so well (but I hope those were just musical differences, not misogyny), I knew that Poles were considered for some weirdo reason "accomplices of the Holocaust", I knew how Rush fans don't accept the political views that are against the mainstream (and I know mainstream usually lies about women, Poland, world events etc.).

I thought to myself it would be nice to shill for Rush's concert in Poland, with my own hands, write to Rush's crew, management, even if it meant persistently, so THE ALGORITHMS SHOW EVERYBODY THAT POLISH FANS CERTAINLY EXIST!
Yeah, what I did was crazy, but only by being not so nice to others I could make the management bring Rush to Poland. I talked to some fake accounts pretending to be musicians themselves (although I'm not sure, I talked to @geddyimages IG verified account and geddyimages told me "THESE ARE FAKE ACCOUNTS, which was correct).
If that didn't work, I asked Piotr Garbacz to write the mail to Rush management.
But I essentially ruined my reputation, by not knowing how to talk to people who already think that Polish fans don't exist and are just hostile antisemites.

I don't understand why the West and Israel are so hostile against my country so much, it's not as if the West didn't have historical wrongdoings and it's not as if UN themselves don't consider Israel so badly.
Of course, I'm into the two state solution, I believe both Israel and Palestine have a right to exist, but I don't know what is historically accurate, as both nations have their version of the history.
Poland was harassed and occupied by Germany, Russia, ethnic Ukrainians with UPA, some Lithuanians, some Communists of different ethnicities I mentioned! And I don't understand why is Poland thought of as the sole problem?!?!?!

As for this Nancy Peart Burkholder meeting, I didn't like the way she was defensive towards Rush, when media reported that it was clear that Rush bullied and harassed The Runaways, so I threw self-hating jokes about Poland (because I'm an expert self-hater since covid lockdowns), I wanted to stop her being ignorant about Polish history and I told her about so many ways occupiers have viciously tortured Poles, so she stops considering us the accomplices of the Holocaust, we weren't that much, as Nazi Germany occupied us. What is seen in Poland as calling someone out or conversation, it is seen in the West as "harassment". Even if jokes I made were at my self-hating expense.
I do wish though that both Rush and The Runaways got along with each other.

I constantly wonder, did they intentionally choose German drummer, so that they spite my historical talk about Poland being victimized?
Did they choose her, because I accused Rush of bullying The Runaways, just because they are women? Who knows? Nothing against her, but why nobody ever gives me any chance, because everybody believe us lower-middle class people are carriers of COVID? Because everybody believes that "Germany redeemed and Poland seldom"? WE WERE THE VICTIMS OF NAZIS! Just because I'm a zoomer? You are stereotyping us as folks who don't know the good music?

I constantly wonder, how many times do I have to repeat that I never made threatening messages to Geddy Lee and Alex Lifeson? Except when I said that "I will outplay them" and make more tours and albums than them, if they don't play, that was what you interpreted wrongly, as a threat, for no reason.

It doesn't matter to most of these folks that basically I was well-known musician who played guitar, bass, drums, keyboards, sang and I played many other instruments I have at my house!
They love hating lower-middle class women like me, so since Covid lockdowns, they look out maliciously for entertainment from vulnerable folks like me.
They care about dehumanizing lower-middle class people because of disease and they force us to be depopulated, especially considerintg the fact most of us have different political views. I don't fit to left or right, like you think! I'm a centrist radfem!

Doesn't matter, but it matters that everytime I spoke about Polish Warsaw Uprising on August 1st, people claim that it's not true Poles were ever heroes, they were just Nazis and it's so heartbreaking to me.
Everytime I posted Rush covers as a 15 year girl (yes, I'm a biological woman, since birth), some misogynistic men acted in degrading ways.
Everytime I said I wanted RUSH in Poland, they said "Poland deserves everything worst, because Poland was not allied but axis country", which is a lie. I said to random people "stop harassing JK Rowling, just because she doesn't like the transhuman agenda of replacing biology", I was called a "bigot", I said "stop harassing inoculated for Covid, they have done nothing wrong to me", I was dehumanized.

You folks don't know how to talk anymore and I don't know if it's a side effect of inoculation or maybe you are just naturally hateful towards folks with different views.
You keep banning us, harassing us, saying we are worthless and when we banned and persecuted lash out, we are framed as a problem.
So-called "normal folks" don't really care about the dystopia in the world happening. Lockdowns, wars, Epstein files, artifical food and water scarce, less and less and less freedom, digital ID etc. WHY?
I'm a radical feminist only since 2020s, when covid lockdowns started really oppressing women all around the world, before that I thought "feminism got what it wanted", but now I noticed there is still room for improvement.

What makes you not care about those current events?
This is why I made "social experiments", because I noticed bigotry, hatred and polarization from so-called "normal folks". I did them since 2022, two years before some nasty trolls formed a hate group against me in 2024.
I did those social experiments because I was myself harassed multiple times, yet us autistic people keep quiet about it, because we fear retribution.
So I wanted to see how nasty and far-fetched this behavior online was.
I APOLOGIZE FOR BEING TOO HARSH. But ultimately you don't care about my apology, which leads me to believe that I'm persecuted because of POLITICAL REASONS only!

Why not so many people care about the fact that lower-middle class women are ones who are going to suffer the most from AI implementation, deepfakes, voice cloning, medical abuse, manosphere and misogyny as a result? I'm trying to complain, to proselytize to many people about the impeding doom and gloom, but nobody cares, because they think Cassandra was lying as well about her surroundings!

As for religion, it's not that I hate religion or religious people. I hate the way they proselytize and tell non-believers how to live and some of their methods have been compared to Kim Jong-Un, for the way they abuse people.
I don't like sexual abuse scandal there and warmongering.
I do agree with Poland that some religions are more cultish than their own religions - hence why Poland is afraid of migrants, I don't disagree with it, but frankly, Poland would be better off, if Catholic Church had less influences, there is Slavic paganism too, but most importantly, Atheists and Agnostics need to be tolerated. I feel so worried about women being ostracized by religions like that as well.

Who knows? Maybe I'm autistic, albeit undiagnosed?
I tend to overreact at something I perceive as a threat.
But it doesn't mean bullies should exploit everything about me.

So many folks there are trying to frame me for what I'm not.
Once again, I never intended to do something wrong or harmful to my most favorite musicians from Rush, even if I criticized their behavior against women.
I distrust the whole rock music industry and metal music industry, I consider it heavily misogynistic and I'm gonna do anything to make women famous musicians just like their male counterparts.

You feel a need to judge me and to laugh at me and my family, having forgot that Covid lockdowns were oppressive and grim, as people from the West don't care about anything, as long as they are not hungry or thirsty.
Since 2020s one can seldom treat other diseases than COVID at the hospitals, almost like cancers, heart diseases etc. don't exist and nowadays doctors claim that "women are emotionally unstable and they need psychiatrist". This is how far-fetched medical abuse became!
And you folks won't connect the dots, won't blame the politicians nor bad agents.
You need to blame an individual for her/his surroundings.


I'm gonna quote one of my poems (mind you, I'm a rhyming poet too, I posted some of it on the web, but for expression, I prefer non-rhyming):

""Since 21st century 20s (my confession)
by Olga Nesterowicz on June 5, 2026. ©
I haven't seen such change in people like this;
Being incredibly hateful became normalized;
Censorship much stronger than before;
People have lolcows, because circuses with animals;
Stopped being cool and even legal (I'd personally like petting zoos for kids);
Children need contact with animals to be healthy;
I see majority of people literally being obsessed with smartphones;
It's a good tool to discriminate against somebody, because of differences;
There are more people than ever (I'd presume a half) that are persecuted;
For their beliefs e.g. political views they are harassed;
It became normal, doctors denied you medical treatment, because of pandemic;
But they made out of it a big deal and as such, people with heart attacks, cancers were denied treatment, as I said many times before;
Medical segregation became normal and inoculated were denied treatment too;
You can't have your political views anymore, look what slander JK Rowling is going through, basically they are threatening her with death and rape;
I won't stay silent, because you beg me too, now that AI is being implemented;
Lower or middle classes are going to suffer incredibly;
They want to tell you that for protesting against unethical use of AI against women and children, "you are the bad one, extremist, you should go to the mental hospital";
I saw people being denied their rights to have a conversation with their favorite musicians, actors, sportspeople, because you are considered "delulu celebrity stalker";
Even now, it's worse, we are denied bare minimum human contact at all, because people are so away from others;
Yes, I agree, there are more criminals than ever roaming on the streets and I'm myself watching out for them;
But I'm willing to bet some of these are planted govt. stooges;
I'm falsely accused by Rush fans of wanting to "to" something wrong TO MY MOST BELOVED AND CHERISHED MUSICIANS!;
Just because I said something critical, e.g. I criticized anti-Polish historical revisionism and because I essentially called Israeli war criminals "murderers";
I won't back from it, I'm saying what I've noticed, because I notice patterns;
I noticed that waging religious wars is more normalized than ever;
Everybody seems to have excuses for likes of Israel, Russia;
Simultaneously, there is growing historical revisionism and guess what... Poland is basically a target of historical revisionists from Germany, Ukraine, Israel, Russia, not that Poland didn't have anything to blame;
But look at those neo-nazi liars who say "SILESIA AND POMERANIA ARE GERMAN LANDS" - this is historical revisionism to me;
They also keep saying that "Poland killing Germans wasn't retribution but maliciousness from Poles";
Like, my country is constantly being blackmailed, harassed and NO REACTION!;
Am I of worse country or something, because I was born in admittedly traumatized Slavic soil?;
People became unironically hostile against each other, treating every word as a threat, because I tend to expose their double standards;
They think my poetry is a threat, because I have been preaching libertarian freedom;
They are into the nanny state and government controlling everything;
Frank Zappa is turning in his grave, for obvious reasons;
He predicted the 20s, where ostracization and slander becomes normalized in this society;
I myself can't get along with the fact I was born in the wrong generation, I know it sounds cliche;
But music became worse, polarization became worse, people became worse, economy became worse, govt. overreach became worse;
We are even more detached from the nature, but human beings are also part of the nature, they need to learn how to nurture the nature;
Humans don't know anymore what animals are, because AI slop is replacing animals and basically feeding and petting animals is prohibited, not that they are going to bother to teach lower or middle classes how to handle animals properly without violence against them;
It seems majority of circus and zoo people are govt. stooges, psyoppers who are intentionally abusing animals;
And so they become progressively banned;
Look at what do they want to do to private owners, who are deeply caring about their exotic animals, they so far find no evidence for mistreatment for some of them, yet they want to take away their animals;
Yes, I'm a libertarian, I'm a bit capitalistic at times, but I think not always capitalism is good, as it allows govt. stooges to abuse people;
Honestly, it sucks that the world is obsessed with building unlivable towers, where you cannot open a window;
Instead of building houses with livable conditions for people;
Almost as if elites actively hate people, look at Epstein files anyway;
And you will find a proof there that elites in fact hate us;
I also noticed the normalized violence against women from men;
Because men seem to resent us for religious or psychopathic reasons;
And men who hate me, invent lies against me, daily;
Since implementation of AI, it's becoming normalized, men are vengeful;
I don't know why, look at Epstein files, anyway;""

On AI and Fourth Industrial Revolution (why are we forced to assimilate with AI by the elites)

 Part 1:

 

On AI and Fourth Industrial Revolution

On AI and Fourth Industrial Revolution (why are we forced to assimilate with AI) part 1:

Seemingly it's inevitable...

A Fourth Industrial revolution came.

Allow me to speak about it very clearly and in essay style.

First of all, you have probably seen people accusing me of hating AI and yet using it.

Let me explain it, honestly:

I used AI for music thrice.

Once, as "Sparks parody" made in UDIO, because I was frustrated with AI frivolously stealing music, as you can see here: https://www.youtube.com/shorts/FEMhsAB9PT8

Twice, when checking how far-fetched AI imitating known musicians is in UDIO:

And thrice, to parody stupid disco-polo on SUNO:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?7v=zB-1Wrrle8M...

I would never in my entire life use AI to generate myself playing instruments, because I played music since 2007, when I was 7 or much earlier, because as a child, I had a contact with music.

I'm capable of playing guitar, bass, drums, some keyboards and singing - I have other instruments in my house, which I'm gonna use in my experimental music as well.

It's interesting how awfully the world changed.

When I'm imperfect in making music with my instruments, people say I'm talentless. When I'm perfect, people say "it's AI, deepfake, couldn't be real".

This is a proof that in my case I'm persectuted, because I'm a woman, Polish and I have non-mainstream political views.

Signed, Olga Izabella Nesterowicz


Part 2:

I simply can't get along with the fact how human life became disposable, eventually. People think that I have no rights to protest against unethical use of AI, which will fuel the institutions that are to many degrees malicious and cruel to humans. I simply can't stay silent and pretend everything is OK, as my fellow women are deepfaked, innocent men accused of crimes (as well as innocent WOMEN) and children are exploited.

The new entertainment, the new circus came in. IT'S AI.
Very dangerous invention of the elites who want to get rid of humans and who want to rewrite the histories and legacies of real human beings.
I don't see anybody protesting against this, which is heartbreaking. I even noticed that Rush fanbase is supportive of it, because they argue that "
Rush is a thinking man's band" IN HOW TO EXPLOIT WOMEN EVEN FURTHER OR HOW TO COLONIZE OTHER PLANETS AS WELL?
This is the ultimate downfall of humanity, technology very much demonic (and I say it as an atheist-agnostic). People just don't care, they are glued to their phones, computers (and I know why, it's because they are afraid of law enforcement being weaponized against them).
So, according to the technocrats and transhumanists, you can freely play God, change your biological sex, change thru AI how public people are perceived as, change the history, change opinions, change music (by erasing musicians), change art (by erasing artists), change environment (by replacing animals and plants with AI), change even your lifespan (only available for privileged rich men and their female collaborators).
Epstein files haven't taught people anything, they won't protest and rebel as long as thy have something to drink or eat.
Most Internet trolls tell people not to care about it, even.
What a sad state of the society....
AND I'M TOLD TO ASSIMILATE WITH THINGS THAT WANT TO ELIMINATE AND DEPOPULATE VULNERABLE PEOPLE?????

62 million men... a letter to Rush, as well as other favorite progressive rock bands...

 

Dear Rush, as well as other progressive rock bands!

As a Rush fan, I can't pretend that everything is OK and I can listen to every single rock band that was silent about anti-female persecution or at least participated in it.
Rush members... Geddy Lee, Alex Lifeson... instead of hiring fans who target feminist women who speak out, when there are even milder forms of violence against women, targeting your female fans who want transparency, call out many of your fellow men for being evil anti-female criminals.
I see you won't... that sort of alienates me from you...
Knowing how you excluded female fans (The Runaways bullying case, 7 females in the row, must be some kind of a world record" or allowing men to bully women, who are genuinely Rush fans").
I know that you have bullied other women, yet I won't speak out about them, because I am not sure if those aren't fake accusations. There is a place to change... I don't believe you are like all evil criminal men, you are what I considered to be good men, but please... not all women are gonna be privileged like Anika, whom you have as a drummer (to redeem your image as a "women-friendly band)? Well, I guess Germans have a right to redempt and Poles are considered dogmatically evil people. Even though -- POLISH WOMEN SUFFERED AS WELL FROM OCCUPATIONS FROM GERMAN NAZIS AND SOVIET RUSSIANS, MEANING MY ANCESTOR WOMEN WERE RAPED BY THOSE FILTHY MALES FROM THOSE SIDES!
As I listened to many progressive rock bands, they were progressive, except when it comes to women's rights... Yes, Genesis, VDGG, King Crimson, Supertramp.... some preferred shifting the focus to other things to be activist about, than talking about women... I'd like to see them speaking out about plight of women....
I'm called a bad woman, just because I wanted Rush in Poland (perhaps I also wanted Rush with Neil Peart, but I have to be satisfied with what I have and cherish it), yet 62 million men and more, who knowingly victimize women AREN'T CALLED OUT ENOUGH, DESPITE THE FACT THAT CELEBRITIES ARE CONSTANTLY VIRTUE SIGNALLING!
Despite Epstein files, I hear no voice that feels bad for women.
As for Rush, I only saw how you derided The Runaways "for being sh*tty musicians", no empathy... no empathy...
And Geddy Lee claims to love fishy men like Woody Allen, Louis CK, all, who had history of knowingly degrading women and as a female comedian he elected Amy Schumer? She looks like she hates her biological gender in the way she cracks jokes!
Just like most of you didn't have any empathy (and probably still don't have) for Poles, who suffered badly during the WWII and communism.
Did I have to crack dark jokes, so you notice how women are suffering? How Polish people were suffering? You wouldn't be educated, so I had to crack jokes in the style of Gilbert Gottfried.
I know how badly I was trolled by the same misogynists, anti-Poles, who wanted to deny me rights to be happy, as a woman, as a Pole, who wanted to deny me rights to SEE RUSH LIVE IN POLAND etc.
PLEASE, SPEAK OUT, I NEED YOUR VOICE ABOUT THIS!
Stop thinking I'm a problem. The whole Hollywood and Music Industry ARE A PROBLEM, because of the way they BADLY TREAT WOMEN!
Your performance in Poland might not be satisfying, unless you speak out in solidarity with victimized women and children!

Olga Izabella Nesterowicz

Truth about why I lashed out against my beloved fanbase

 

My real story of being a Polish Rush fan who was subjected to worst cybertrolling ever - when I revenged against my perpetrators, suddenly I was framed as a problem:

- Be a Polish Rush fan;

- Form a Polish Rush fanbase group;

- Be painfully aware that Poland is "not a best place for Rush fanbase";

- Cry all night, because of it;

- Be mobbed by a bunch of trolls who hate Poland, because of antisemitism allegations - acting like they want to prevent Polish Rush fans from seeing Rush in Poland, EVER;

- Read about Trójka the Polish Radio listeners' allegations of Geddy Lee fearing to perform in Poland because he thinks Poles are hostile against him;

- Try finding more evidence for it;

- You are angry at gossipers from Poland;

- You remember being mobbed by trolls who legit hated you for being Polish;

- 2015, Neil Peart retires;

- Cry even more, as you know you will seldom see Rush in Poland;

- 2020, Neil Peart dies;

- Cry even more, as it's 100% certain Polish Rush fans will NEVER see Rush in Poland;

- Be mobbed by trolls even further, as they know Neil Peart passed away and Poles will never see Rush in Poland;

- Listen to the song "Ghost of a Chance" and feel inspired by it;

- You start looking for means to contact Rush's promotors, crew, management;

- You befriend them;

- They are nice, but they say things, Trójka Radio listeners were gossiping about;

- You start crying, as you know that Poland is not a welcomed country in mainstream Rush fanbases;

- But there is still "a ghost of a chance";

- Geddy and Alex talked about missing Rush live performances, especially Geddy did talk about it;

- You still have the hope;

- Covid lockdowns (since 2020), getting cyberbullied by randoms, because you are isolated;

- Find solace in talking to Rush's crew, management, promotors, fanbase and... fake Geddy Lee/Alex Lifeson accounts;

- Some of them want to scam you for 200$;

- One of Geddy Lee's fake accounts starts apparently doing what looked like logging into real IG account;

- Talk to Rush's crew about it;

- They say to "stop engaging with them", even though I couldn't believe my eyes, it looked like this celebrity's account got compromised or something;

- I was angry, I started talking about hacker/AI problem, further proving my points that AI IS DANGEROUS TO US ALL!;

- Nobody cared nor listened, because everybody in Rush fanbase is enamored by AI (which confirms everything I read about from a Denver woman, that Rush loves AI and wrote songs about it);

- Then, I saw once again, Rush-The Runaways feud and started getting angry;

- This was the moment, when I started reminiscing about the fact that Rush fanbase told Polish jokes and disrespected me, because I was a woman from Poland;

- So... this unfortunate meeting with Neil Peart's relative began;

- Started asking her questions, if Rush members are nice and she didn't want to respond;

- Started asking her about their attitude about Poland and she confirmed that;

- Started joking about my country of Poland in front of her, thinking I might impress her, as everybody hates Poland;

- She instead of laughing thought I'm "sick in the head", but I had a typical Polish sense of humor;

- All of sudden, Rush fanbase lashed against me... but I was merely pushing back against trolls who hated Poland. I was even 16-18, when it happened;

- All of sudden older trolls who hated Polish Rush fans started reappearing;

- I didn't know why some lashed out against Polish fans, but I presume some were wronged by them;

- They started spreading rumours against me, because I was exactly, lashing out against my cyberbullies from 2016-2020;

- I'm starting to wonder:

WHAT MADE RUSH PERFORM IN POLAND, IF THEY DISLIKE POLAND SO MUCH FOR ALLEGED ANTISEMITISM OF ALL OF US????

GERMANS WERE TO BLAME FOR WORLD WAR II! AND IRONICALLY THEY PLAY WITH A GERMAN (who is a woman and admittedly a good musician);

- Nothing, I will forever remember Rush fanbase as community that enabled my cyberbullying, because I'm a woman and from Poland.

The problem here.

 I might be autistic. I'm serious. I wasn't diagnosed. I meltdown at every single threat I receive and I need to find some ways to stim, like jumping around the room, for example.
Please, don't persecute me, I'm a normal person, though.
I hate certain textures and the way people talk to me and look at me and judge me.
Henceforth I was forced to conduct social experiments, to see how far-fetched is not only misogyny and antipolonism but also... hatred towards autistic people.
I have tendencies towards hypochondria as well and OCD.

Faceci znaleźli nowy sposób na odebranie kobietom niechcącym mężczyzn w swoim gronie miejsc w Internecie

 Zasyfiają je nielegalnymi treściami. Ale robią to tak, aby kobiety nie miały prawa do normalnego życia.

Ja wiedziałam o tym, dlatego przeszłam załamanie nerwowe.

To jest operacja psychologiczna mająca na celu uniemożliwienie kobietom posiadania separatystycznych stron internetowych, które mają nam umożliwiać normalne życie.

Także kobiety, proszę Was, uważajcie!