Truth about why I lashed out against my beloved fanbase

 

My real story of being a Polish Rush fan who was subjected to worst cybertrolling ever - when I revenged against my perpetrators, suddenly I was framed as a problem:

- Be a Polish Rush fan;

- Form a Polish Rush fanbase group;

- Be painfully aware that Poland is "not a best place for Rush fanbase";

- Cry all night, because of it;

- Be mobbed by a bunch of trolls who hate Poland, because of antisemitism allegations - acting like the want to prevent Polish Rush fans from seeing Rush in Poland, EVER;

- Read about Trójka the Polish Radio listeners' allegations of Geddy Lee fearing to perform in Poland because he thinks Poles are hostile against him;

- Try finding more evidence for it;

- You are angry at gossipers from Poland;

- You remember being mobbed by trolls who legit hated you for being Polish;

- 2015, Neil Peart retires;

- Cry even more, as you know you will seldom see Rush in Poland;

- 2020, Neil Peart dies;

- Cry even more, as it's 100% certain Polish Rush fans will NEVER see Rush in Poland;

- Be mobbed by trolls even further, as they know Neil Peart passed away and Poles will never see Rush in Poland;

- Listen to the song "Ghost of a Chance" and feel inspired by it;

- You start looking for means to contact Rush's promotors, crew, management;

- You befriend them;

- They are nice, but they say things, Trójka Radio listeners were gossiping about;

- You start crying, as you know that Poland is not a welcomed country in mainstream Rush fanbases;

- But there is still "a ghost of a chance";

- Geddy and Alex talked about missing Rush live performances, especially Geddy did talk about it;

- You still have the hope;

- Covid lockdowns (since 2020), getting cyberbullied by randoms, because you are isolated;

- Find solace in talking to Rush's crew, management, promotors, fanbase and... fake Geddy Lee/Alex Lifeson accounts;

- Some of them want to scam you for 200$;

- One of Geddy Lee's fake accounts starts apparently doing what looked like logging into real IG account;

- Talk to Rush's crew about it;

- They say to "stop engaging with them", even though I couldn't believe my eyes, it looked like this celebrity's account got compromised or something;

- I was angry, I started talking about hacker/AI problem, further proving my points that AI IS DANGEROUS TO US ALL!;

- Nobody cared nor listened, because everybody in Rush fanbase is enamored by AI (which confirms everything I read about from a Denver woman, that Rush loves AI and wrote songs about it);

- Then, I saw once again, Rush-The Runaways feud and started getting angry;

- This was the moment, when I started reminiscing about the fact that Rush fanbase told Polish jokes and disrespected me, because I was a woman from Poland;

- So... this unfortunate meeting with Neil Peart's relative began;

- Started asking her questions, if Rush members are nice and she didn't want to respond;

- Started asking her about their attitude about Poland and she confirmed that;

- Started joking about my country of Poland in front of her, thinking I might impress her, as everybody hates Poland;

- She instead of laughing thought I'm "sick in the head", but I had a typical Polish sense of humor;

- All of sudden, Rush fanbase lashed against me... but I was merely pushing back against trolls who hated Poland. I was even 16-18, when it happened;

- All of sudden older trolls who hated Polish Rush fans started reappearing;

- I didn't know why some lashed out against Polish fans, but I presume some were wronged by them;

- They started spreading rumours against me, because I was exactly, lashing out against my cyberbullied from 2016-2020;

- I'm starting to wonder:

WHAT MADE RUSH PERFORM IN POLAND, IF THEY DISLIKE POLAND SO MUCH FOR ALLEGED ANTISEMITISM OF ALL OF US????

GERMANS WERE TO BLAME FOR WORLD WAR II! AND IRONICALLY THEY PLAY WITH A GERMAN (who is a woman and admittedly a good musician);

- Nothing, I will forever remember Rush fanbase as community that enabled my cyberbullying, because I'm a woman and from Poland.

The problem here.

 I might be autistic. I'm serious. I wasn't diagnosed. I meltdown at every single threat I receive and I need to find some ways to stim, like jumping around the room, for example.
Please, don't persecute me, I'm a normal person, though.
I hate certain textures and the way people talk to me and look at me and judge me.
Henceforth I was forced to conduct social experiments, to see how far-fetched is not only misogyny and antipolonism but also... hatred towards autistic people.
I have tendencies towards hypochondria as well and OCD.

Faceci znaleźli nowy sposób na odebranie kobietom niechcącym mężczyzn w swoim gronie miejsc w Internecie

 Zasyfiają je nielegalnymi treściami. Ale robią to tak, aby kobiety nie miały prawa do normalnego życia.

Ja wiedziałam o tym, dlatego przeszłam załamanie nerwowe.

To jest operacja psychologiczna mająca na celu uniemożliwienie kobietom posiadania separatystycznych stron internetowych, które mają nam umożliwiać normalne życie.

Także kobiety, proszę Was, uważajcie! 

This joke perfectly captures why as a Polish woman, I will never be a part of the Western world, if Gilbert Gottfried were Polish, he would tell such jokes.

 It's an explanation about the apparent beef with Rush fanbase, which I'm forgetting about now:

"There were three Polish men and one Polish woman. They went to a casting in Hollywood. The director, casting guy opened the door for them. He asked: 'What do you have to offer?' To this, they replied: 'We are a rock band, could you listen to our recordings?' The recordings were good, the foreigners praised them, claiming they could match the classics of rock. To this, the casting guy replied: 'That’s out, next please.' So the whole four began to show their acting talent for playing in dramas, comedies, etc. To this, the casting guy answered: 'Noooo, that’s out! Next please!' So they started circus tricks, including juggling, acrobatics, as well as animal training. To this, the casting guy answered again: 'No, that's out! Next please' The desperate and terrified crew began to cry bitter tears: 'NOOO, WE BEG YOU... WHY DO YOU HATE US SO MUCH?' To this, the casting guy replied: 'Because you’re from Poland and you were hurting my family,' the casting guy replied, specifically having no proof that the whole four and their famillies hurt his family. To this, the desperate four replied: 'IS THE BLOOD OF OUR ANCESTORS NOT ENOUGH FOR YOU??? Ukrainians sawed us with a saw, Germans put us in camps, smashed the skulls of infants, Russians sent us to Siberia, to the cold, Ukrainians applied 300 tortures over several years against us, including nails to the skull, Germans shot in the back of the head, Russians too, Germans suffocated us with gas, Russians lashed us, raped children, women, animals, smeared excrement everywhere at the faces of our ancestors, literally like monkeys, not to offend them, these barbarians, women, children, old people etc. suffered agonies, Oh Jesus...' To this, the casting guy replied: OH F*CK BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA, THAT IS THE FUNNIEST JOKE IN THE WORLD, BECOME COMEDIANS, YOU HAVE A PERMANENT JOB WITH ME! The Polish four left, took offense, and never returned..."

Gilbert Gottfried by się tego nie powstydził, gdyby był Polakiem.

 

Kawał wymyślony przeze mnie:

Było trzech Polaków i jedna Polka. Pojechali na casting w Hollywoodzie.

Otworzył im drzwi Pan dyrektor-castingowiec.

Zapytał się: ""Co macie do zaoferowania?""

Na to oni odpowiedzieli: ""Jesteśmy zespołem rockowym, mógłby Pan przesłuchać naszych nagrań?""

Nagrania były dobre, zagraniczniacy pochwalili je, twierdząc iż mogą dorównać klasykom rocka.

Na to castingowiec odpowiedział: ""To odpada, następne proszę"".

No to cała czwórka zaczęła pokazywać swój talent aktorski to grywania w dramatach, komediach itd.

Na to castingowiec: ""Nieeee, to odpada! Następne proszę""

No to zaczęli sztuczki cyrkowe, w tym żonglowanie, akrobatyka, tudzież tresowanie zwierząt.

Na to znowuż castingowiec im odpowiedział: ""Niee, proszę o następne!""

Zrozpaczona i przerażona ferajna zaczęła płakać gorzkimi łzami:

""NIEEEE, PROSIMY... DLACZEGO NAS TAK NIENAWIDZICIE?""

Na to castingowiec odpowiedział: ""Boście z Polski i krzywdziliście moją rodzinę"", odpowiedział castingowiec, akurat nie mając dowodu na to, że cała czwórka i jej rodzina krzywdziła jego rodzinę.

Na to zdesperowana czwórka odpowiedziała:

"CZY MAŁO WAM KRWI NASZYCH PRZODKÓW??? UKRAIŃCY PIŁĄ NAS RŻNĘLI, NIEMCY DO OBOZÓW WSADZALI, ROZBIJALI CZASZKI NIEMOWLĄT, ROSJANIE NAS NA SYBIR, NA ZIMNO WYSYŁALI, UKRAIŃCY 300 TORTUR PRZEZ KILKA LAT WYSTOSOWYWALI WOBEC NAS W TYM GWOŹDZIE DO CZASZKI, NIEMCY STRZELALI W TYŁ GŁOWY, ROSJANIE TEŻ, NIEMCY NAS DUSILI GAZEM, RUSCY NAS BATOŻYLI, GWAŁCILI DZIECI, KOBIETY, ZWIERZĘTA, ROZMAZYWALI WSZĘDZIE ODCHODY TWARZE NASZYCH PRZODKÓW, JAK MAŁPY DOSŁOWNIE, ICH NIE OBRAŻAJĄC, CI BARBARZYŃCY, KOBIETY, DZIECI, STARCY ITD. CIERPIELI KATUSZE, O JEZUNIU..."

Na to castingowiec odpowiedział: O KURRR*A BUAHAHAHAHAHAHA, TO NAJŚMIESZNIEJSZY ŻART NA ŚWIECIE, ZOSTAŃCIE KOMIKAMI, MACIE U MNIE ETAT!

Polska czwórka wyszła, obraziła się, i więcej nie wróciła...

I know why is Poland laughed at and Polish historical suffering so trivialized

 It all doesn't help. 
How many times have I explained to foreign people that Poles have also been killed in many gruesome ways? Wola, Volhynia, Katyn, you name it. Most cruel was Volyn with 300 tortures against Poles, but other ways like camps and Poles getting shot in the back of the head were also unbearable.
My beef with my favorite band was exactly over this. 
I had to create Gilbert Gottfried-esque jokes about my country's suffering, put on my Alice Cooper's persona (Dead Babies and Cold Ethyl come to mind).
But most people there didn't catch what I wanted to say nor did they catch the joke.
Some people just need to Google who the hell was "Testoviron" meme in Poland.
Basically this guy called Testoviron was a misogynistic and anti-Polish dickhead who pretended to be from Israel, but in reality he was a Pole from Chicago, hating other Poles.
I just wish Neil Peart's sister understood, what I was joking about. Because yes, frankly I didn't like the Rush-The Runaways feud, as both bands were my favorites.
So the thing is, Poland is actually hated by all nations, it seems like most nations wish the Polish people non-existence or other cruel things that remind us of trauma.
At least it's great that I have NO BEEF with Rush anymore, at least I can give it to 2027.
But I wish people cared a little more about Polish suffering, as the mainstream media wishes upon us another experience of awful conflicts.

Best Gilbert Gottfried's joke?

 Rush in Poland.

Hiya, the bitch is back and ain't nothing gonna break my stride.